things that are bother my heart.

things isn't easy during this few days. i know that i can't go on like this, i feel that my life is gonna be a mess. yet, i can find meaning thru this. friends that i tot never mean that much to me starts to surface up, really thank God that he has put this bunch of buddies/friends/family around me so that i feel so alive. i have tot of sucide but i was scare of death, fear grip my heart when i realise that God is still in control even when things isn't. i pray that now is not too late to repent and that she will lead a good life during the future. as for me, i dunno. i feel lonely at times, but i will live my life as fulfilling as possible. thank God that though my heart is bleeding, but it's been stop by the Lord. i pray that people i neglected will know that i still have a place for them in my heart.