New year's eve

Its a new year coming but i am not excited at all. probably due to the fact i'm spending it at home. lol. seems weird not to have countdown but nevertheless i think it's okay la. just chill at home and rewind what has happened in 2009 eventful year.
1) i ORD from the commandos suffered all kinds of shit there.
2) sign on as a regular police officer. still enjoying

okays not very eventful. thanks for reminding me. but i hope to be better next year. everyone has hope don't they? i really hope to mild my own emotions abit and stay to the neutral side. not to get angry at anyone, god help me. thank you! amen.

Helping out

gonna go help out my dear bro who's moving house. its time to lend a helping hand to him (: but gonna let dear stay home till i'm done with the moving. see u dear.

Brand new skin

hoping to make a come back into blogging. help me :) currently a trainee doing training for my work. hope to make a difference when i come out to the society. updates for now.

I'm sinful~

Your Deadly Sins

Gluttony: 40%

Envy: 20%

Greed: 20%

Sloth: 20%

Lust: 0%

Pride: 0%

Wrath: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 14%

You'll die from a diabetic coma.

edited

nong nong ago

hey blog/bloggers:
it's been really loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong since i updated this blog. buhahahaha, i'm back. recently have been busy with school and most impt my baby. haha, it's been fun with her around, without her means sibei sian. haha, miss her now but i also really been missing our 1P01. bahh, it's been very long since i saw all of them all together. especially hao! that durain man, don't even deliver durain to my house! haha, i want to eat durain hao. hint hint* haha, this yr's school has been tough but thanks to my dear, it has been ease out. everybody jiayou!!! let's pass this last yr and go ARMY. haha. take care dude.

ps: those who view my blog better tag me. heh!

my nohari & johari! (:

Nohari : r Nohari


Johari : r Johari


feel free to tell me what u think abt me! (:

it's time for me to tell u who has been sleeping with me this one month!

it's him. he is now my fave and most loved teddy i ever had. his name is called: GON GON!



anyway, he is very shy so the first picture abit slanted. hehe!


but after a few times, he got used to it and tadah!




and finally i threathen him with a screw driver! haha u know what la, screw his *&*&*#@&*#&#*@%. oops. too violent le!

7 the perfect number

It's like the in-thing now to do this thing, so heck! I'm also going to copy suit! haha. blehs. enjoy,

7 things that I want to do:
1. exercise to shed my tummy paiseh la!
2. open up to her
3. get my room clean up
4. buy myself or get someone to buy me a watch
5. travel out of singapore
6. install the FREAKING RAM for my lappy
7. all things glorifying Him

7 things that make me smile:
1. seeing her makes my day
2. killing heros with my veno/sniper in dota
3. seeing my cutie niece
4. looking above and see nice clouds
5. a car license might be good!
6. sleeping on my bed
7. being with her

7 things to win my heart:
1. roses GONGON
2. someone that simply loves me for who i am
3. not lying even though the smallest thing
4. when i know you care
5. ABOVE all other god(s), Jesus
6. lovely friends
7. a big hug!

7 things i believe in:
1. *bu chai hu tian chang di jiu, zi chai hu chan jing yong you*
2. myself
3. everybody
4. man also crys
5. money isn't everything but without it, life can't continue.
6. love isn't blind
7. God is love

7 things that I dislike:
1. lies lies and more lies
2. idiots that block my ways
3. laggy lappy hate most! and i can't play sacred because of that
4. falling sick when there's nobody there to take care of you
5. backstabbers though sometimes i also does that but I'm still learning to control
6. ppl that walk with their legs wide wide and hand swing uncontrollably like an orang utang
7. my low self esteem

7 things i am afraid of:
1. losing myself
2. getting out of no where
3. alone at home
4. xiao qiang *then i'll see GuoMeiMei's song, "bu pa bu pa la" bu pa my ass I'm scared like hell especially those that flys, supa irritating
5. losing my friends
6. losing honey
7. communication breakdown in family/friends/loveones

7 things i do everyday:
1. 50 situps to clear my tummy
2. play dota/cs
3. go to school? *NP still sucks
4. on-ing my laptop to check the stupid NP emails!
5. koon with my beloved GONGON *btw GONGON is my fave and most loved teddy now!
6. thinking what will my honey be doing
7. waiting for miracles to happen

7 people/things i want to see:
1. my honey
2. my ex's doggie, because it's so cute.
3. my bed
4. my family
5. YOU?
6. CHRIST eventually
7. all my beloved friends!

it's v-day~

today whole day do nothing! lol, but later i'm gonna go imh to give her a surprise! haha, datah! blehs. i'm must not look tired, and die! i'm broke!? haha. but since it's v-day will get her something la. so hope that she'll be happy despite her work till 9pm today. i dunno how this things but i know i need to be mature already bah, getting old already can't be that playful anymore. i pray God will grant us this faith journey as we walk thru the different stages in life! haha! so i guess everyone's enjoying v-day! HAPPY VALENTINES~

peace out, mmouse.

Try this out!~

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is this it?

blame it on me just me. i dunno what the hell is wrong with me. hais. it just boils down just down. i'm sorry for the things that i've done, and i was hoping too that u will wanna return the 300 **** to me over the years. but guess i was naive, i'm not good enough for anyone la. i'm just a bastar* idiot that gave u all the problems. and whatever that may happened i pray that u'll be fine, and nothing will come to harm against u. i'm confused confused abt many things. confuse abt why why i said such things. I APOLOGISE sorry, well nothing i say will mend anything. because u know what, i'm a loser anyway. take care of yourself please.

peace out, mmouse.

Blissfulness is being with you~

my niece~!

i think i have fallen hard already. i never knew this kind of feeligns b4, i hope you are feeling same too my honey. this journey down may be hard ba, but let's move on with preserverance. hugs. i'm feeling so blessed dunno why too. i pass my maths' quiz two. i'm happy though! i'm happy with a lot of things that happened, if not i wouldn't be here in this state. God be you! take care praying for a miracle. (: all the best friends.

peace out, mmouse.

my new toy!

wow, i have to thank my classmates for this. they bought me a ipod shuffle!!! i'm in need of a music traveller with me man. if not all those boring bus journey is gonna kill me very soon! haha. alright today was a good day, went hougang actually for my relative house but it got so boring and she was free so she asked me out to hougang mall! lol, had fun with her playing arcade and catching up was great. though she look tired, she still gave me that cute smile that she has! well, i'm dumbfounded, i know she isn't gonna like me or what so we are just friends. many ppl always assume that boy and girl cannot be friends. i dunno la, we are friends and that's it dunno why ppl can't take it as it is. nvm, i'm one of them too. so just beat it! lalalala well it's time to power up my shuffle! thanks dudes that bundle in for the shuffle!

ANGBAOS?

recent pic

it's been a good and rewarding time for me as this chinese new year is coming to a past. it's been a sharing experience for me as i get to know more things "happening" though i won't say it out here. but i really thank God he has somehow makes us bonded for this year, although things might be tough this year i pray God will guide us through this period of time. so that after we'll be able to reach the promised land where there are overflowing of milk and honey, Lord i pray that you'll help us this family though many of us are non-christians but i know someday someday they'll come to know of your saving grace for your mercy never ends. Thank you Lord for this harvest. i'm praying that everyone will be safe in your arms, even those that hurt me or those that i've disappointed. Lord, may your blessed them and their households, cheers as God is here. WIN FOR CHRIST!

*tag me tag me tag me! haha. earnestly waiting for your tag. God bless

Peace out, Mmouse.

It's CHINESE NEW YEAR!

weeeeeeeeeee, what time is it? it's ANG BAO time~ keke. today is a good day, i'm at jiachuan house now, yesterday came over his house to play games. then i played dota with ah hao! i use venomancer i got 15-2, so i think our team got some teamwork la, that's why we won. our total team kill was 45-11 so amazingly good. lol. blehs. lalala. HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR to all the ppl in the world!


on the side note, i'll be having a chalet/bbq from the 24-26 march! please make yourself free and COME for my birthday party! blehs! hey if u can't make it, presents will be appreciated! oops. just joking! blehs

I'm ichigo~~!!!

Take The Quiz Yourself!

I'm a better man (soon to be)

Dear dear dear, I’m feeling great for today although there are some Monday blues streaks. I’m still working out my issues as God is slowly dealing it layer by layer. Though it hurts but I thank God for it because if this layers aren’t being peel and heal, I guess I’ll still be in the mist of a jungle! At least I’m feeling much better and I hope to get well soon too, thank you all who kept me in prayers, i appreciate it. I hope to have a more rewarding life this year, all glory and honor goes to the mightiest name on the earth, Jesus Christ!

God bless and peace out mmouse.  

double post! double the fun!

haha! just came back from visiting my grandma and my cute little niece! both of them are so cute! keke, but i really pity my ahma! that's what i usually call her, she's working as a cleaner at the tekka mall. hais, it breaks my heart to see her still slogging her life even at an old age! 60+ gonna go 70 soon. but if she never work, she'll complaint nothing to do as she had move out of this area tiong bahru that she has and had been living for almost half a century! well, guess life's always changing! and i'll have to set mine too.

1st: to get back with GOD

2nd: to go drinking with my buds!

3rd: to study hard this sem! as i fail 2 moudles already. sobs.

4th: to maintain myself from speaking vulgar! GOD help me! haha.

5th: maybe to have a birthday party at botanical gardens?!!!! i hope to though i have sponser for chalet already.

6th: change handphone!

7th: take care of myself sobs!~

i'll update if i've got more things. ehe! enjoy ppl. thanks for reading even just for a bit! do tag me~ cheers.

peace out, mmouse.

it's been a good day!

thank you Lord! this is the only thing i'm happy about. i thank you God for bringing me out of this resolve! Lord, i wanna live my life differently, i want to live it for you! no longer for anyone, but for you! all glory to God, praise to be unto your name. i know something said cannot be withdraw! but i know there's a purpose and will for us to say and do things everything we do it! i've moved on onto another chapter of my life~! i going 21 this yr, i'll learn to be strong, i'll learn to trust God! thanks everyone, for the below post, it's definetly be my last vulgar i'm ever gonna use.

peace out, mmouse!

feeling *!

i'm feeling rather  up. i dunno what, i don't believe that what a sore loser i am myself. I AM A SORE LOSER, do u copy? I AM A SORE LOSER, get that? ok? just nod your head and say your goodbyes jackass. no one pities you, you know?  shit. this is first and last post on this word . so i'm gonna just it like nobody's  business. well,  this is nothing, compared to the pain i'm still  holding on. it's nothing compared to it, nothing! i have a up life, a  up character,  up looks, up comp. basically everything's fucked up in my life. so  off!    

it's been a month since i update!

sorry guys! didn't update for along long time. haha. i'm just lazy being just able to just release everything to fun laughter peace and joy. (: well, it's been bitter sweet joy for me as i went back to church for the first time in like 2 months? lol. been struggling alot! but when i went to expo for the first time last week. i can almost immediately sense the presence of God so strongly. i cried, but no one knew except for Him cause it was Him that teared me. i was feeling great but after that i reverted back to my old self again. feeling lonely and venting my fustration on anyone and everyone. argh i just can't stand myself. this yr isn't really the very best of yr i presume. but i'm not that bad considering myself with those poor african children. when i grow up, i want to visit africa! that's when i grow up. haha! when i grow up, when i grow up. hais! update again soon. winks*

it's been a boring day

yesterday when for svc, felt that sermon was quite a rush. didn't catch anything, maybe i wasn't in the right mind also. yesterday was feeling very dejected by everything, dunno why the feeling is still so strong. the "i-miss-her sydrom" is getting so ever strongly. like what my friend said, true love when gave out is very hard to take back. i dunno why i'm feeling this, maybe this was a testing that God gave me, i really need you Lord to give me strength to move on. time will never - ever let me forget you, but it has allow me to be healed in one sense or another.

""i gave you up was because i love you too much, i didn't blame you is because i love you too much. all i ever ever wanted to do was to love you, i guess the time has come to past. i told myself why bother to sms you when you're not even my gf, but i just can't stop myself from smsing you. do you know that? i'm missing you every single second, guess u'll never know. this feeling will be forever in my heart.""

i'm still hoping and praying for this patch up, but i know it will not come. the way i wanted things to go, it will go another way, i'm sad. i'm tired of everyday pretending that i'm happy and go lucky, guess one day i will blow up and everything will be a mess. am already in a mess, i duwan to pull you down, maybe you're better off than with me. hope u're happy with yourself now, guess it all crumbles down. i might just fall one day. HARD very HARD for myself, till then may i be awake.

today morning went to play basketball with some of jason's student or somehow student, it wasn't too bad. but guess i haven't been having enough food or water or sleep or the three of them. i'm having bad headaches now. tml i have a maths quiz, i hate it. well, guess it's time. for me to sleep, God bless me. no longer i have the right over my life, but you. only you can bring me alive, out of this lifeless shell of mine. i pray for your happiness for everyday, that u may be happy. for me, i have nothing else to wish for.

i miss you.

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i really miss you. though you have already let go, i still hold onto them so preciously. i do get depressed very easily, i really hope this *duan tong bu ru chang tong* is really kicking into my life. hard very hard. on the verge of breaking down real hard. i need you, just you. to feel my life again, it is only you that i will be able to live right again. take care my beloved, u are always in my mind,heart,soul. no matter where i am, no matter what i am doing, i will be missing you always. my standards of a wife are the looks of you, i will wait, no matter till when it takes, i will wait for you to come back to me again. i know i might be foolish but this is the only thing i'm living for now, even if i were to die alone, i will have no regrets because when that time comes. i know u don't belong to me. shucks, do u know my heart is crying? whenever i'm moody, it is because my heart is crying, crying for our love. i'm such a crybaby but who cares, life's become so tasteless. all i want is to be with you, i still love you alot a whole lot. i just love the way u are, the way u treat me, the way u scold me, the way we used to hug, the way we used to hold hands, the way we used to quarrel, the way you say i love you, the way you say i miss you, the way we were just being so comfortable with each other, the way u used to share ur troubles with me. i just missed it all. you are all that i want but i can't have you already. i blame myself everyday, nobody understands me. nobody understands how i feel, i guess only God knows. i'm sad, sad almost everyday though i tried to act like nothing happened, but deep inside i know i know that nothing will fill this void of you, nobody can replaced can you with my emptiness. only you can fill it. only you. i dunno what to say, i dunno what to do, all i wish is that u are happy. that satisfy me even if u don't want to see me already. i would be happy to know that u are happy. important is that u are happy, it doesn't matter whether i die or not. as long as u are happy, i'm most willing to die for you, i'm talking no sense. who cares. dumb me, someone understand me please?

my undying love is only for you, zR

tired!

school has been a torment to me this two weeks. i'm especially missing someone that was and still is important to my life. but i know that we are impossible already. sometimes i just felt very sad that when i think about it. i just don't feel comfortable every night i sleep. without someone's hug, though hard i will go thru this, can't really think of anything that could fill my life except God but i'm like not glorifying him by my actions. i'm a bad example. please don't follow me, though i know no one will. (: recently my gan meimei, also experience this. i felt so sad for her as i know she also had the special person in her life just walked out on her. i dunno what to say or do to encourage her because i'm pretty much the same. my parents are divorcing, though sad but i know it will be a release of this ten years separation. as least a closure for the both of them, whatever they want to do, i think they should know what they are doing. they are adult, i'm just their son i can't do anything. i felt so helpless. this is the darkest period of time for my life, only my friends are there for me and my good good God. i really hope to see her smiling and be happy because that is all i wish for now. seeing her happy will also make me happy though it's not me that is giving her the happiness which i also think i can't give her that, at least someone is more capable of giving that to her. i wish u all the best for ur jap testes that are up-coming. God bless you. as for myself, i only can self-pity myself to a certain period of time, but fret not, the lord is with me. thank God for this time.

peace out. zR aka ex

things that are bother my heart.

things isn't easy during this few days. i know that i can't go on like this, i feel that my life is gonna be a mess. yet, i can find meaning thru this. friends that i tot never mean that much to me starts to surface up, really thank God that he has put this bunch of buddies/friends/family around me so that i feel so alive. i have tot of sucide but i was scare of death, fear grip my heart when i realise that God is still in control even when things isn't. i pray that now is not too late to repent and that she will lead a good life during the future. as for me, i dunno. i feel lonely at times, but i will live my life as fulfilling as possible. thank God that though my heart is bleeding, but it's been stop by the Lord. i pray that people i neglected will know that i still have a place for them in my heart.

sigh~

can't find a job! haha, today went to enquired about the 'yakun' bread shop. but i got rejected. haha! that's was funny, they don't want students. well, guess i'm not gonna be a kopi kia. keke. and seriously i think my blog is dead. lol, seldom update siao. hehe. hopefully i can be faithfully to this blog and come diligently for updates. i'm praying for a better job, though i'm not gonna care what job that's coming its way for me. i just hope that by this week i can get a job if not i'll go back to my cell life. :) which is good so that i can focus more on God too? not a bad idea, ;| ok la, gtg. peace out, zR.

Just wanna add.

this is the day. i returned simon the money i owe to him. i just wanna say that my *below post* is what i felt, i have nothing against anyone or anything. just glad that nothing happened, btw i'm going sentosa with my friends. wohoooo, hope to really enjoy this time and not think of anything already. Bless today, let there be no rain so that we can enjoy there today, amen! gonna thank chaoyang and jason, thanks bros. not forgetting paul and gloria's warm welcome yesterday for the food. thanks! i really eat till i bloted(is that how u spell it)? shurgs. well, think it's time for me to go already. thank god for this perfect closure. all things happen of a reason. God bless, zR.

Surely it is!

though it has been a while since i posted, i really wanna update those that really care about me. thanks for being there for when i really needed u guys. thanks also to esther meimei that u still read my blog for update though i seldom update. but i'm fine just that, well, things aren't going good for me regarding my friend. i've been thinking thru and processing, could i be the problem? maybe the real problem is that we can't communicate well so things happened this way. i guess this is the lord's time, because things are always in control when i let God handle it. i'm really at lost, because i can't really accept that how can a guy can put a brother even to his heart and cares for him like a real brother. take it that i'm strange, but can u accept a friend that always put your friendship on the line and that when u don't not listen to him, he takes a big fuss out of it? i'm already having headaches due to the fact that i also need to care for my gf. i cannot give u all the attention that u needed. i apologise for that, but why cant u accept me as i am? why are u always trying to change me, always wanna control me in whatever i wanted to do. i know u care, but sometimes u don't even give me the freedom that i needed. even my father is giving me the freedom to do what i want. i'm not saying that i don't care about ur feelings but sometimes u are doing things to the very extreme, do u know that? sometimes i really wonder what are u really thinking about, this set me thinking, are u trying to maintain our friendship thru testing and putting it on the line, so that when i heed ur words then only i'm ur brother and friend? ur thinking of friendship might be wrong let me tell u that, it was because u always wanted friends to be yours but in fact they were never yours. we have our own thinkings which u cannot change because if we change, we aren't ourselves. do you know that? simon, i just really hope that u'll understand me. not that i really wanted to end this friendship, u forced me to because everyday when i see u, i'm being pinned to the wall with no where to run. u understand me? whenever u ask US what we think about u, as a true friend, i wouldn't want to lie to u and say all those words just to pleased u. i just spoke the truth yet u gave an negative response. i'm struck dumb, did u know that? everytime u said, speak freely but can we? when we say negative things about u, the negative side of u will rise up and counter us back. "am i really like this to u?" "i'm a failure in life" i mean, why are u saying this. u are who u are. don't make up another simon out of simon. i saying this is because i still treat u as a friend but since this episode comes to this closure, i really appreciate that u are willing to help me with my studies in the past. but for now, i would like to keep a distance from u. because i just need to time for me to think and reflect on myself. thanks for always saying that u are there for me, i know that. u dont have to repeat urself, a true brother will not keep this things in his mouth but the well-being of his brother. may the lord guide u as we go thru this time of cooling down. God bless, zR.

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hmm, feeling bored. so came over to check things, didn't know my blog has become a deserted place. lol. well, i guess this is for me to write my writings so i don't bother if who comes in and bla bla bla. well, school hasn't been good for me since the starting it's been the sixth week now. i still don't catch what the lecturers are teaching. i'm so gonna be in a big fixed! lol. things isn't going well in class too, shouldn't say it but i really hope it can change for the better, with all those backstabing words. i'm also affected by it, but i know i can't control it so i sin. yeah, its sound like no big deal to you, but its big to God. i can't imagine God has to face me everyday doing the same old mistake and forgiven me. i really need to think of my actions, my words, my thoughts, my life, my loveones, and foremost my family. recently many things happened to me and my gf too, thank God it's over now, if not i think i;ll be a lonely boy over here. thank God for granting jinling to be able to understand how i felt and how i reacted, so that she knows i still cares for her. *on the note*i'm not sure what i typing already. ignore me! lol. just feel like relieving some stress here cause gaming doesn't help. it just boils my blood more, later got high blood then jialat ah! keke. one more thing to add, i'm a fool of God.

Dying to blog?

I think I’ve lost the passion to blog already. Woot haha. Recently been slacking at home while earning pocket money from my DAD. That sounds so arghhh. lOL it's like I’m still living off my dad but well, i'm a crouch potato man. damn slack. Played bball with my neighbor at the local cc, lost 2 games and won one. lol. cause we have a stranger in our team and we have to make do with it. The most irritating thing was that the stranger whenever he has the ball will shoot it (like he is some superstar), i felt so disgusted. well, that's life.

My girl is having trouble with her stomach again, the 'girl's thing' is making her unwell. Hopefully the 'whazzup doc' has given her the right medicine that will make her well of course. Have been sleeping early in the morning this few weeks, guess ill have to stop it soon otherwise when school starts i'm so gonna die! lol. What's good is that, my classmates are still with me! wooooo 'lets rock the school again' haha. I'm mad. Firstly, thank God for break thru in my life and that he has blessed my life yet again. Hugs, ‘in my heart is where you reside’.


God bless, peace out -.-v zR

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hihi ppl, long time no blog. guess my passion for blogging stop burning at
the moment. recently many things happened. well, since it's past no point going
back to the past. yeah? holla! not sleeping well this few days, keep sleeping
late and waking early and then back to sleeping to the evening like now?! haha.
haven't bathe, brush teeth, pee, shit, watch my fav tv. well, gonna bathe now if
not i'm gonna smell like a pig dork. guess u guys are busying with your own
things ya? i better not ask u guys out. so take care, update soon i guess.

boyisfeelinghappy,areyou?

will try to make the blog working again. as for the tagboard, someone help meEEee

Advance

Happy advance New Year! gonna take this chance to thank everybody for crossing my path. would like to thank Simon for teaching me for my common test modules and i wanna thank God for giving me such a supporting gf, understanding me in everything i did wrong. Thank you honey. i love ya. 23/01/05 was the first year anniversary for me and my darling. i pray that we'll stay forever this close as bgr and as a parthner to share our problems to. hehe well, i will just hope that i could pass my common test. i believe that i've failed some, but during the recommon test i will be able to pass them. :p Happy New Year all, God bless all of ya!

An Encounter with God~

I was truly blessed by pastor victor wong, thru his teachings, i've learned many new things and think in a creative way abt God. I went for this encounter camp with my cell grp, at first i didn't wanted to go there because i think i felt God before therefore i didn't need to feel Him again. But cell grp persisted and i agreed to it. i tot it would be another boring sessions of lecture telling me Christ is Lord over you and kind of stuff, but Ps victor enlighten me with his light teachings with lots of experiences of his that he told us. i truly understand that what does, "in Christ, we are a new being". this sentence made me think alot, about all the things that i've done, all the sins and my transgressions. i felt an surging from the Lord, I have sinned against the Lord that i would renouced all my sins. i pray oh God, that not only do we have the need for you, we need your Love. I've tasted it, i want others to taste it too, help them to understand your love and the people of the world needs you Lord. i had a great time fellowshipping with God, He was my friend and my comforter. when i look back during those time when i fell, when i passed my exams, when i spoilt simon's laptop, He was there with me all along. He never left me, He was always by my side but i never realised that He stood there beside me. i thank you Lord for letting me have the strength to go for the encounter. Thank you. You are indeed my Lord and Saviour. I pray for the unity of Christians in singapore that we'll share His love with the people. Amen! God loves you and so do i.


By the way, today was also the day for me and my Gf. We advance to our first year of relationship, i pray Lord that u will strengthen our bond every single day. Thank you ahhhpaa.
zR 23/01/2005

Not so good!

Damn it man, today really wasn't a good day for me sia. i accidently spilled ice-lemon-tea unto simon's laptop. man, it's the most stupidest thing i've ever done man. darn! man! this is so irritating. wish i was dead when i spilled the water onto the lappy, crap i meant real crap for myself. i felt so clumsy man. arghh so fustrating. i need a break. perphaps a kit-kat should do it. dang, then to some ppl that think that they're damn good, often misunderstanding ppl's good intention, to hell with you. one word, HYPOCRITE! arghhhh, i'm really really sorry to simon. guess i can't do anything man. have to wait till tml then i'll know what can i do. the worst is that i have to pay full sum, either, hope that it can be repaired. i really do hope so, but well, even if it can't i'll bear the responsibility. hope everything with me and simon is fine, stupid old me. that's what i done, so bear with the consequences. and i dun really understand ppl that are christian. i myself is one, and i find myself doing all the things that i shouldn't do but i still did it, i don't want to mention names. i do sometimes find ppl who are likes to, treat friends as dirt, seeing them as a transparent object. i just don't get it, maybe it's because they hate the someone, if not jealous of the someone, God i really don't know what to do. i really do hope to see some improvements on them but what can i do when i'm not even their close friends? it's really weird to see that friends can turn to enemy in just one hr when their friendship is one year. arghh just don't get it! blame me i'm dumb.


ps: Please don't come act HOLY to me, you should know what have u done and what have u not done. maybe i'm just too friendly or i'm not friendly whatever it is. don't come bother me or u shall feel my wrath! DAMN IT, close friends are not included.

The recent me:

HAPPY~~

Today i went to buy my new phone which is the new 6670 it's soooo cooool okie. i love it man. haha. but i did spent qutie abit and thanks to my darling i'm able to get my phone, so glad. thank god too for giving me a new phone, i will be careful with my new phone. hehe. very kan chiong abt it so don't blame me because it cost me almost 800 if i haven't trade in my 7250. but really thank god, new year's wish: to be able to finish my bike license and buy a second hand bike. :P winks

Christmas Today (quoted from another blog but i love what he/she says)

JG said,

"Just the other day one of my office colleague had bought her daughter to the office for the Christmas party in the office. I love kids, so I was asking her whether she knew why Christmas is celebrated. She gives me the biggest smile and tells me "Of Course, for Santa Claus and presents" . In short Christmas has become for Santa Claus and presents. It was festival to remember Jesus birth into this world, but the commercial world has decided to forget the true meaning of Christmas by replacing it with the material word of "Gifts".This is a true scenario not just for kids but also for all grown-ups. All of us rush to do Christmas shopping, gifts, food, party, drinks, friends. How many of us truly, sit quite and remember God's love. How many of us go to church on Christmas Eve...Church...no way that is a party day for most of us...How many of us open the Bible....sadly a very small percentage of people.God showered his love so much and all we do for him is to "Forget him". Still God continues to hold to us thinking one day we will love him as much as he does...Sometimes when I look at my own sinful life, I wish God would let me go, I don't deserve his love...but he continuously indulges all my vices... and teaches me gently the true meaning of life and helping me correct my sinful life....however wretched it is..I pray; that this Christmas instead of running after all the commercial things which only is a waste of money and needless energy, let us all open our hearts and give it to God...
God does not want anything else from this world. This world belongs to him, all he wants is everybody to love him as much as he loves everybody in the world. We are his creation, let us come before him worshipping and praising him...Remember Christmas is God's love to you...
so let us shower him our love...instead of forgetting him..Jhn 3:16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

God Bless you.. Thank you for reading with me...

Have a wonderful Christmas remembering God's love, JG"

It's all good.

was feeling down the other nights cause i was pretty much tired out of my lessons, quite stressful. but good thing was i found out that one of my pri sch friend is in ngeeann. was amaze by that. thurs wasn't a good day for me, cause i had oral communications, i think i shouldn't have done badly for the oral but i just made it bad. haha. well, that's okie cause the topic was: should singaporean speak singlish. i said no and i actually spoke in singlish! that made my whole class laugh at me. woot. but it was fun la to know my stardard of english was. i dunno how i decided on that. heh, nevertheless, i got suan by my `cher loh so paiseh leh. haha. well, to me, if people around is happy i don't mind being the clown for that short period of time. ^^ anyway, going service later, really wanna see God again feel him and lead a life that's righteous for him. i pray all this to be able to come true. thanks dad! anyway, things isn't going well in our class, i hope that we would be able to clear the misunderstanding soon loh really not feeling great like that. I'm glad talk to lian sie yesterday or was is today morning? haha. thanks for affirming me, i really appreciate it. ^-^ hopefully we'll meeet up SOON. haha, on your birthday! it's on the 23rd. people must remember it! haha.

Brand new day

Hopefully today will be a better day for everyone of us. so take care and i'll see ya in school. God bless. muahh

and this is me. lol
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di yi chi~

decided to come over here to check things out, hoping to find this blog better then the previous one.